| Location | Ealing |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Undisclosed |
| Date of Birth | 25/02/2003 |
| Date of Death | 25/02/2003 |
| Visitors | 908 since 15/02/2009 |
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Waiting outside for my second scan I was excited, I had had quite a few early miscarriages before and was so glad I had made it to 21 weeks!
Inside, I lay on the bed waiting to see my little bundle on the screen, there it was! I was so happy that it wasnt until the sonographer asked me the last time I'd felt the baby move that I realised that something was wrong.
I told her I'd felt it move last night, at which point she said the words I will never forget...
" I'm afraid there is no heartbeat, your baby has died."
I heard somebody screaming and it was sometime before I realised it was coming from me.
The hospital told me I had to come back the following day to be induced.
I got to the hospital the following morning and the first thing I saw was a mum with her newborn baby.
I could barely stand I was so overcome.
I was induced and at 21:18 Matthew was born, he looked so much like his brother Jack.
He was perfect, he had died having strangled himself on the umbilical cord.
I held Matthew for hours until the nurse came to take him away. I couldn't physically give him to her.
Mike had the awful job of taking him away from me.
Leaving the hospital was the most painful thing I have EVER had to do, my feet would not take me. I kept being pulled back to check he was ok but of course he wasn't.
Everytime I drive past that hospital I am transported back to that day.
The funeral was just as heartbreaking too. Matthews' ashes are still in my bedroom as I can't bare to scatter them and let him go. Although I have his photo and hand and footprints, knowing I have him with me and that he is not on his own somewhere is so much comfort.
Sleep well my little angel, thinking of you always
Love Mummy xxxxxx
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I was so moved by what you wrote,I cried.May your baby be cradled in the arms of angels til you meet again.Big hug,and My g/f was a Corcoran too,so you caught my eye.Take care,love Sacha
What kind of place would heaven be with all its streets of gold, if all the souls, that dwell up there like yours and mine, were old? How strange would heaven’s music sound when harps begin to ring, if children were not gathered ‘round to help the angels sing. The children that God sends to us are only just a loan, He knows we need their sunshine to make the house a home. We need the inspiration of a baby’s blessed smile. He doesn’t say they’ve come to stay, just lends them for a while. Sometimes it takes them years to do the work for which they come. Sometimes in just a month or two our Father calls them home. I like to think some souls up there bear not one sinful scar. I love to think of heaven as a place where children are
I did not see you close your eyes,
I did not see u die,
All I knew was that you were gone
Without a last goodbye
It was a sudden parting
Too bitter to forget
Those who loved you dearly
Are those who cant forget
It doesn’t take a special day
For me to think of you
Each babe I see, I stop and remember you.
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